This is exactly where I am presently.
Psalms 13:1-6 NLT
O Lord , how long will you forget me? Forever? How long will you look the other way? How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart every day? How long will my enemy have the upper hand? Turn and answer me, O Lord my God! Restore the sparkle to my eyes, or I will die. Don’t let my enemies gloat, saying, “We have defeated him!” Don’t let them rejoice at my downfall. But I trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because you have rescued me. I will sing to the Lord because he is good to me.
How long? Why? BUT(and it’s a big but) I trust. God, You’re good. You love me. And I WILL keep praising You, thanking You, because You are faithful and Your promises are my armour.