Paint me in the colours of music: flat, sharp, subtle and bold.
Keys of black and white tell a story that is anything – everything – but.
Nothing so tidy, nothing so clear-cut…
something so imperfect and painful becomes a melody.
And chaos is just the prelude to the exquisite, the graceful madness.
A tale of sadness. Wednesday’s child.
It’s my story. It’s my portrait.
These are my colours.
I first wrote this back in 2005. The free verse poem has been on my mind throughout the day (it’s been one of those days) along with wondering whether to share the poetry here or not. Obviously, you see what I decided. However, once I made the quality decision to put it up (after a bit of an edit from the original and after creating an artistic background for it so it could be a share-able image – the highlight of my day), I had a considerable struggle getting it here since WordPress decided to go all stupid on me and refused to publish the post, insisting on keeping it a draft (even though I changed it to “publish”) and then, just to add to the crappiness of my day, it ate what I had written here – it wasn’t on the “draft” anywhere (only the poem/image remained), so I’ve had to re-write my commentary. After the day from hell I’ve had, I really don’t appreciate the sh*t…and, just when I was thinking WordPress was so fabulous (I doubt THIS post will be getting freshly pressed any time soon, oh well)! I always think that when there’s a challenge to posting something that it means it should definitely be posted. Thus, after some colourful language, quite a few tears and the pulling of my hair, I have persevered. I certainly hope my perseverance will be worth it; if this piece provokes a thought or two then I will have done well. And, perhaps writing about the struggle to post it will encourage someone else who may feel alone in their frustration with blog-platforms who refuse to do as they’re told! Whatever the case, I welcome you to consider my thinking on something I am greatly looking forward to: the release I long for, which I believe to be… beautiful.